Cowardly

The more offers I get the more I say no. 

I started out so well I really did I wanted to take Tabby out and explore everything and try my best to become Tabby but I have really failed this week. 

I am terrified I will lose my job and because I keep spending money on female clothing I have credit card bills to pay, a mortgage and everyday bills. I would simply die if I had to work in an office everyday Tabby would have to be locked up deep inside.

I am so lonely and so scared Zoe and I have fallen out she thinks I am not interested and does not understand some times I just need some time. 

My emotions are all up and down and I burst into tears at a drop of a hat.